I have a feeling this will be life changing for me.
My whole life I've dealt with health issues and I'm starting to wonder if it all stems from this.
I was originally diagnosed with Autism, Depression and Anxiety due to situational hallucinations I dealt with during stressful situations along with constantly napping and chronic fatigue The medication I was prescribed increased my fatigue and weight gain. I don't doubt I deal with some mental illness (as the medication was successful in removing hallucinations) but I wonder if it's been worsened due to sleep apnea?
It started to get worse after a breakdown, causing me to drop out of work and university, I was a wreck and eventually went on a Disability Pension from 2017-current day to allow me to survive without my own income.
I was sleeping 10-12 hours a day and still felt tired, and eventually it worsened to a consistent 16-20 hours a day recently, which finally caused me to push for a sleep test since everything felt impossible and I was getting none of my personal projects or freelance lowest points they blamed my medication or sensory overload from autism and I only recently pushed for a sleep test for it to reveal I had 45 'events' in one hour.
I feel like I should be sad about it, but honestly I am so relieved and I am excited to finally use a CPAP machine. I want to know what a good nights sleep feels like and I am hoping my life will finally change for the better as I have so much potential in my creativity, and desire to improve my business... I just never had the energy to back it up. I always felt like I was 'lazy' and told I needed to "try harder" when I would get so overwhelmed feeling as if I couldn't do anymore in life and I was reaching my limit. No matter how hard I tried I could never break the limits given to me... but now I might be able to?
I am worried I am getting too excited. I see alot of stories of how a CPAP changed peoples life and while I don't expect to be 100% functioning at all times (nobody is) I am holding on to this little bit of hope that I can finally achieve my dreams to some extent. I admit I have ugly happy cried more than once...
Thoughts?