I am speaking not as a medical professional but as a veteran of the antidepressant withdrawal boards. Here is what I am wondering and this may or may not be applicable in your situation.
Previously, you had been off meds since May but later, you mentioned Zoloft as part of the equation. As an FYI, many people who go off of an SSRI taper way too quickly and get rebound symptoms like anxiety that look like a relapse but aren't. It sounds like that may have happened in your situation but of course, I could be wrong.
Anyway, while you seem to recognize you made too many changes at once, I am concerned that you are not giving enough time to stabilize on the Zoloft reinstatement and are trying to cover the symptoms with ambien and lorazepam which may further destabilize your nervous system. Believe me, I do understand the need for immediate relief as SSRI induced anxiety is definitely not fun to deal with. But I wish I had a nickel for all the posters on these boards who did what you did only to end up alot worse.
I'm going to talk it over with my providers Monday. But... I'm not sure what else to do. I have to keep functioning while all these changes are going on.
Hang in there buddy, you are going to get through this.
If you'd like to try a breathing exercise, I might suggest number 8 on the site below. No medicine, little time, possibly quick results. It's just a basic mindfulness technique, recommended to me by a CBT therapist. (I have no personal connection to the site.)
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Good luck to you,
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Eventually the cpap will become "normal" and you'll wonder how you ever got along without it. I know you're using medication to cope with a lot of things right now. Maybe try something to snap your brain away fom thinking about the cpap whike you are asleep? A white noise of some kind? A box fan next to the bed was my old trick years ago.